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   Chapter 34 Hurt And Comfort

For His Sake By lily97000 Characters: 14007

Updated: 2019-06-08 18:58


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Emily's Pov:

"Edward-you horrible son of a rotten smelling fungal black slippery sticky onion crushed in a juicer machine, you-" I started to blabber frantically only to stop and stare at the man standing in front of me, still and erect, tired and sad, seeing him going through everything hard I was going through myself these past four days when I looked up to stare into his blue orbs I missed so much that instantly my own eyes welled up with tears, and I wiped my nose again with the back of my shirt to stop myself from breaking out in front of him.

"Edward-you real beetle of-" I started yet again but my body betrayed my tongue and before I knew I shouldn't, I ran towards him and launched myself on him, opening my arms hugging him firmly, my fingers digging into his shirt and my eyes betraying my mind, flowing tears of sadness and reunion.

"Lily I-"

With the force I attacked him, he staggered back a bit, tumbling on the stray book before falling on his back over the bunch of other books on the floor, taking me with him. I lay still over him, my breathing ragged, heartbeat racing infinity, my arms still around him, holding him for dear life. Avoiding eye contact seemed best for me right now.

"You, rotten piece of crap- how dare of you to make me worried over you, I ought to just kill you right now-you bloody-" I kicked him on his knees, balancing my weight over him, still not looking at him.

"Lily listen-"

"What should I listen to, you filthy rag-" I kicked him yet again, swinging my legs slowly though, as I was aware he looked weak. He let me kick him as much as I wanted to and when I was over it, I laid on top of him, breathing heavily.

It took me a moment to realise where and which position we were in, with me straddling him and him lying beneath me. Instantly, I lurched my weight up, too embarrased to even look at him, my mind replaying every intimate and passionate moment we shared that night. I removed my arms from around his neck to stand up when I felt pair of arms wrap around my waist to pull me closer and immediately, I fell again on his hard chest.

He pressed me closer to him, his hands trailed down my waist to my shoulder, pulling me slowly and he buried his face in my hairs.

"Edwar-"

"I missed you, Lily. I missed you so much!"

I was touched by his gentleness and his softness which he had been showing to me so often these days. I closed my eyes and hugged him back and we lay there for a while.

"You've lost weight, Emi!"

I opened my eyes to stare at his face, his eyes still closed and holding me. His face was so close to mine, I could make it's each and every features, his nose, his hairs, his cheeks, his eyelashes, his plump lips and before I knew what I was doing, my hand was raised dangerously and my fingers trailed over his cheek before cupping his cheek fully in my hand.

Immediately, his eyes snapped open to look at me in shock and surprise. I retracted my hand quickly, my fingers forming into fists before putting them over his chest and stood up abruptly.

He also was on his feet in a moment, extending his hand to catch my wrist but I took two steps back, staring on the floor.

"I need to go to washroom! I'll be quick!"

I rushed quickly, my feet heavy in steps. Quickly locking the washroom's door, I slid down slowly on the floor covering my mouth to stifle a sob in a dark room. Tears flew down my cheek yet again, while I sobbed quietly to myself shooking my head for my own stupidity. I wanted to cry out loud, wanted to scream and kick something in frustration but Edward didn't know I used to cry like that.

He knew me as a strong person, one who never goes down and cries like a bird for getting her happiness stolen and he definitely would never have imagined me in this state, being all weak and vulnerable just because I was in love with him and he coudnt love me back.

He could love me back. I knew that. If I confessed to him right then and there, I knew he would stop seeing Lara, Infact he would never see her again just to stop myself from getting hurt more. He would leave her for real and would gladly lie to me that he loved me back all th

ush rose to my cheeks to see he indeed kept my photos in his phone and my chest swelled up in pride to see his phone wallpaper consisted of our picture at beach on our honeymoon to Mauritius.

And not the one with Lara!

"When the hell did you take so much of my faces-" I looked up to see him looking down, playing with a spoon on his food.

I knew what he was thinking.

"Edwa-"

"But I hurt you!"

He looked up and I saw his eyes filled with regret, remorse and sadness.

Three expressions I never wanted him to have after he gave me the most amazing night of my life!

"But Edwar-"

"I hurt you so bad, Lily! I'm a villain who doesn't deserve someone like you as my best friend. I should be beaten up so badly-"

"Edward! Will you listen to me first?"

"No, lily..dont take my side. I'm a loser who cant even protect you from me myself-"

"Listen to me Eddie!?"

"And all this time I was protecting you from all those men when a real beast was lurking in my body all along-"

"Edward!!" I yelled at him.

"Look at me. Here! Look at my whole self! Do I look like you hurt me? Do I!?Am I that weak to you that you think I can't even protect myself if I want to? Do you think whatever happened between us two that night was only your fault?!"

"But Emi-"

"No. It wasnt your fault alone.! It was my fault as well. But what could we do anyway? We were two people with opposite sexuality, clinging to each other for our facade, touched each other to fool someone and before we realised what we were doing, things got out of our hands. So it isn't anyone's fault. I understand it pretty well!"

"But Lily I used you for my-"

"No. You didnt, Eddie! It was just the heat of the moment. Nothing else.!"

"But you're my best friend and I can't have you under me for that stupid scientific term!"

"I don't know. Okay. I took it my way and my way doesn't involve any of us being at fault or anything we did as a mistake!"

I really didn't want to cry out loudly in front of him for the pain which was shooting right through my injured heart everytime I called it "fault" when it seemed so much real for me.

"But lily. I hurt you and no fact or reason you state can stop me from hating it or forgiving myself for that! I'm gonna repent it my whole life!"

I put my hand on his shoulder to calm him down.

"Edward, there is only one thing you can do to hurt me and you know what that is ?!"

He looked up at me, his eyes red from all that emotions and for a moment I thought he would cry like a child in front of me.

"What is that!?"

"By behaving like this. Like I never knew you from the beginning, like I never knew if you were a beast or a villain.. Like I never knew you intended to hurt me or not. Like I never knew you cared for me or not!"

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