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   Chapter 63 life won't be worth.

Grieving Hearts By Ricky Donna Characters: 19590

Updated: 2018-07-14 20:14

I know I am late, but the Chapter is the biggest one, equivalent to two chapters, I hope that will make up for the delay!


Onika's Pov....

I looked at the divorce papers infront of me.

"I have signed the papers, your turn" Agustin said, his voice surprisingly void of any emotion.

That was quick, Agustin was discharged from the hospital yesterday itself, though I was still unsure of what will be Agustin's decision, he could be so unpredictable that I won't ever bet on anything when it comes to Agustin, but somewhere I kind of knew this is what he will do, or at least I prayed, what I didn't expect was he will be this quick to take the decision.

So this was the moment I have been waiting for, I am just a signature away and every thing will be over.

I eyed the papers for too long as if expecting it to vanish in thin air.

"You can read the papers before signing, " he said, mistaking my lack of response with with my lack of trust.

"Of course, " I said.

A pained expression crossed his eyes.

What did he expect me to say, ' it's not needed, I trust you?' if I could ever say those words again, we won't be signing the divorce papers right now.

"Yes, of course, " he mimicked with a pained smile, sending chills down my spine.

He looked at me for two beats, his expression looked like he wanted to say something, but doesn't know how to form words.

"Before you sign the papers I want you to know, you could have rather asked for my life, it would have been easier than this, it kills me to know that I won't ever see you again. There isn't any reason for me to live, life won't be worth living without you, but then again dying and putting the guilt on your head isn't worth my pathetic life either, you have already been through enough trouble because of me than I will ever deserve in my hundred life times, so it ends here, I think." He said, forwarding a pen from his pocket.

"Life won't be worth living without you, " I repeated his word, looking into his eyes, "that was what I thought when I agreed to marry you, but living without you, I did. I learned how to do that, you will learn that too, it's just a matter of how long it takes, but a time will certainly come when I will be just in your past."

I saw plain denial in his eyes, he opened his mouth to say something, but I continued, " nonetheless I wish you had realised it earlier."

His expression looked like as if I have stabbed him"I wish that too with every breath I take" he whispered in a broken voice.

I hardened my heart, took the pen he was offering and started going through the papers thoroughly.

My eyes widened in disbelief as my eyes fell on a perticular paragraph.

" 3 million dollars?! Are you out of your fucking mind, I don't want a penny for you!" I shouted in disbelief.

"Read it carefully, it's not for you it's for Alex..."

"Oh yes it is, because you knew I will refuse to take even a cent from you." I stated.

" Onika I am just trying to make sure Alex doesn't have to compromise with anything, you can use the money in anyway you see fit for Alex, or he will get the money when he comes off age, what is the problem with that?"

I narrowed my eyes at him, "the problem is, I don't understand why will you do this, why would you do something like this, he is not your own child."

"I just want that Alex is well taken care of, and don't ever have to..."

"You don't trust me to be capable of doing that?" I seethed in anger, at his lack of faith in me.

"No! God no, please don't misunderstand me, I know he has got the best mother out there, I don't doubt that, not even a bit, not for a second, but you don't know what may happen in the future, god forbid, but what if something happens to you? He has no living relative, nothing..." he hesitated before asking, "will you want his life to be like it was yours?"

He asked softly, leaving me completely speechless.

"I don't understand this, why would you care about him." I finally voiced my suspicion.

"I don't know how to explain this...but I owe him something so big that maybe all I own will even be not enough to repay him back."

His words were followed by complete silence, silence that was clawing at me, tearing me apart, my heart beating haphazardly, melting at his words.

I took the pen and signed the papers before I completely breakdown infront of him.

"I will soon move out of here, I have to apply for job somewhere else.."

"No! You don't need to, I am the one who forcefully entered your life, so it's me who should leave..." I cut him off.

"Agustin please don't argue with me on this, I want to start afresh somewhere far away from here."

After a few minutes of silence he finally replied, "okay, if that is what you want."

Before I can leave I asked him the question nagging at me, "how did you come to know I was pregnant?"

He visibly paled in colour and just gulped the saliva down his throat Instead of answering.

"I asked you something Agustin."

"I..I, I read your entries, and got a clue about that you were hiding something and investigated into the matter" He said, looking ashamed.

Anger started bubbling inside my chest like lava as it clicked what he is talking about, " How could you?!" I shouted.

"I am sorry." He whispered looking away.

"Did you read all of it?"

He moved his Adam's apple up and down, looking frightened, "yes."

I clutched my hair in frustration.

"I am so sorry please don't be upset." He pleaded.

Upset! I am infuriated!

"You had no right to do that."

"I know, " he mumbled in defeat. "I just wanted to know the extent of damage I have done."

I sealed my lips into thin line, I just wanted to know the extent of damage I have done, and this was the only way you could think of.

"Tell me what I need to do so that you will forg

s he burst out into a fit of laughter

I immediately got on my feet and slapped him on his chest mustering all my energy, "you bitch!"

"Oh god, that was a sight worth seeing."

"Sure it was, " I said pouting my lips in dismay.

"Okay, okay, I am sorry, " he said throwing his hands in a gesture of surrender.

"Mark my words Jacob Knights one day a girl will come in your life and... beat the shit out of you, "

"We will see." He said in a challenging way.

"You will see." I corrected.

"A question though, if I ask you to marry me, will you?"

"The day you will fall for the girl actually ment for you and when she will love you back the way you love her, that will be the day you will thank me for not tying you up with myself in a loveless relationship.

"How can you be so sure about that?" He asked wriggling his eyebrows.

"Because God doesn't make rare person like you to die alone, that would be a great loss for all the female population in the world."

"Well I will agree with that." He said his eyes dancing with mischief.

"I also have a question for you."

"Okay, ask."

" Can you forgive Agustin?"

" If you genuinely ask me, I thought I can never forgive him, not for what he did to me, but for what he did to you...."

"But I did forgive him Onika, " he confessed.

"After you talked to Agustin that day in the hospital, he called me in and I was ready to slap him as soon as he says sorry, but he never did, instead he said....he is ready to be my best man when I marry you, he is ready to reciprocate the sacrifice I made for him, '

And I knew Onika it was harder for him to say that then bear the worst kind of pain that is known to the mankind... I could see in his eyes how he was dying from inside, I had to forgive him."

Tears started dribbling from my eyes as I couldn't control my emotions anymore.

I threw my hands around him and cried, cried till I had nothing left, till my tears ran dry, all the while he kept soothing my back.

I knew he was crying as well with me, I knew it in the way his chest shook with silent tears.

Finally gathering myself I said, "I don't know whether I did wrong or right but I do know if I want to live with myself I needed to do this, but it hurts Jacob it so very hurts, and I know he is hurting as well, after me you are all he is left with, promise me you will help him move on, promise me you won't ever give up on him, promise me."

"I promise." He vowed sincerely.

Before I can even realize what I was doing, I hugged him, he immidiatly wrapped his hands around me, and we just stood there like that, letting ourselves get lost in each others embrace without any word being spoken, trying to show him how much this means to me, how much he means to me, before I walked away.

That was the last time I saw Jacob Knights. And I knew one thing for sure, this person will always have a place in my heart, my shinning star.


The Chapter might contain a lot of horrible errors, really sorry about that.

So, that was the last chapter, I was actually not prepared to post the Chapter right now, I haven't even think through it properly I wanted the last chapter to be the best, but since the past couple of days I was really busy with my collage works and with constant update reminders I was really feeling guilty for letting my readers wait like this, so I had to update with whatever came in my mind at the moment.

I so want to say that the epilogue will follow soon, that was the initial plan to update the epilogue a couple of days after the last chapter, but right now I have continuous 12 hour classes for the upcoming consecutive three days, yes even on Sunday, my life really sucks, but that is how it is. This is why I am not ready to write another book, because this vicious cycle will keep continuing.

My sincerest apologies.????

Love ya'll

Ricky ??

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