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   Chapter 52 royally screwed.

Grieving Hearts By Ricky Donna Characters: 10005

Updated: 2018-07-14 16:33


Agustin's Pov......

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# Day

Happy birthday to me.

I hate this day-I dread this day, this is the same day my parents died. I never liked to celebrate my birthday, and I never did before I met you and Jacob, I remember how both of you always tried to cheer me up, saying that I should move past it or it will always be painful if I don't try to move on, that was the first time after my parents death that I celebrated my birthday.

That was before our marriage, I remember my first birthday after our marriage. I never thought it will go that way. It stills hurts to think about that day.

I recalled my last birthday, tear stinging at the back of my eye.

You were not home when the clock stuck 12, I thought you may be planning something special and just pretending to have forgotten my birthday to surprise me.

Then my phone rang, I hurriedly ran for it, thinking you must be calling, to say something like, come on the roof or something, as I used to do on your birthday, but it was Jacob's call.

I picked up, he wished me "happy birthday, beautiful." I giggled and said thank you.

" So what's the plain for today?"

I excitedly replied "I think Agustin is planning a surprise for me"

Jacob went silent on the other side of the call, after a while he said he have to go and hung up.

I waited, waited and waited...one hour, two hours, three hours...whole night, you didn't show up. I cried to the pillow whole night.

I tried to console my self, you must be stuck with somthing important. I checked my mobile again and again, for any message, any call, there where none.

Deep down I knew you are just hanging out with your friends, like countless other nights, when you don't even think it's necessary to at least inform me. But I couldn't make bring myself to believe that, I thought at least today will be different.

You came in the morning saying your friends dragged you to the pub and you spend the night in one of your friends house.

I couldn't say anything, I just stared at you. Maybe I didn't do a good job in hiding the pain on my face, Sensing that you catched your ears and said that you are really sorry and it won't happen again, then you asked, what I want you to do to make me forgive you.

The words where on my lips but I didn't- couldn't voice it, I just wanted you to say, 'Happy birthday, Onika.'

That would have done, I would have kissed you then and there, every thing forgiven, it was that simple.

Instead I said, "you are forgiven but from next time at least message me, " I gave a small smile to pretend every thing was okay, but if you I would have looked carefully, you would have noticed, I was holding back tears.

I instead, you smiled, kissed my forehead and said, "sure thing."

You started to make your way to our bedroom when your phone rang, you looked at the screen and a frown appeared on your face, " fourteen missed calls from Jacob, what's wrong

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# Day

I want you to rot in hell. I want to choke you to death. And I think of thousands of ways to kill you. And at the end I realise this is not me. I don't want to be this, What have you done to me, Agustin? I am loosing my mind.

I never wanted to be what I have become, I don't know myself anymore.

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# Day

What do you want Agustin De Luca? You always wanted me to beg, to break me....I am fucking broken, I am fucking begging you, let me live.... You have already broken me into pieces now please have mercy and at least leave my pieces along, before no trace of me is left.

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# Day

I want you to be nothing more than a distant memory, or maybe not even that, is there any way to induce amnesia?

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# Day

Today I just woke up and realized I couldn't handle it anymore.

I just wish I were never born.

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If you weren't born there wouldn't be any meaning of my existence, I mumbled to myself.

As I was about to turn the page, I heard a knock at my door.

"Agustin, are you ready for the party? We are already running late?"cames Onika's voice.

I was so engrossed in reading her entries, that I completely lost the track of time.

I heard the door knob turn.

Shit! "Onika don't enter, I am changing clothes" I lied.

"Ohh..I ..I am sorry, I will wait outside" she answered sounding embarrassed.

I smiled to myself at her naivety, if I were changing clothes, I would have been more than happy to let her walk in.

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Sorry for the small chapter(????), the next one will be bigger. It was really draining for me to come up with even this small chapter.??

If you like the chapter please vote, comment, and share. ??

Lots of love, Ricky ??

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