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   Chapter 51 bleeding raw.

Grieving Hearts By Ricky Donna Characters: 11661

Updated: 2018-07-14 16:30


Agustin's pov.......

I raked a hand through my hair in frustration. How the fuck I didn't figure it out before that Jacob was talking about Onika in that interview, he had been in love with her all this time right under my nose and I never for once considered that he secretly loves my wife, that motherfucker, this runs deeper then I thought. I assumed he must be talking about one of his past flings. Christ, how wrong was I.

The worst part is I think Onika has a soft corner for him as well, I hope it's just that and nothing more. Fucks this. He needs to stay away from her, or else he will pay dearly. I am already walking on thin ice and the last thing I want is for Jacob to jeopardize whatever little chance I may have with Onika.

How I want to just fire him, but I know it won't sit well with Onika.

I was brought out of my reverie by a knock on the door.

"who is it?" I asked in an irritated voice. This Office won't even let me grieve in peace.

"It's me, Onika, " came Onika's soft, angelic voice.

Fuck. I immediately hide her file in the drawer, yes I have brought her file to Office, I just can't keep my mind away from it, it's like I want to read it in one go and at the same time I don't even have the courage to read her single entry without feeling my heart being torn in two.

I immediately straightened up and called her in.

"Please come and sit" I said, as soon as she entered.

"So, to what do I owe being blessed by your presence, " I said teasingly with a little smile.

Instead of answering, She just kept staring at me as if I have grown two heads.

"What's the matter?" She asked, her eyes still looking at me with that soul reading gaze. My heart picked a pace, for a moment I thought she had seen the file, but that is not possible I tried to reason, and asked, " nothing, why do you ask?"

"Your eyes are bloodshot, you have developed bags under your eyes overnight, it looks like you haven't slept in ages! Are you sick or something?" She asked, frowning at me, her voice laced with concern.

Right at this moment, with concern for me in her eyes, she is looking so beautiful that I just want to kiss her senseless. This is the nearest thing to affection I have got from her in ages.

"Agustin, I am talking to you." She said, waving a hand infront of me, that brought me out of my trance.

"No, no I am perfectly fine...I just didn't sleep well beacuse of a little...headache." Heartache instead and a lot of it, I said silently.

"You want to take the day off?" She asked, wriggling her eyebrows suggestively. Plain adorable, is what she is. Okay, I need to control this.

"No, I am fine now, ..." She cut me off.

"You don't look fine to me, anyway a little rest won't harm.." She tried again.

"Onika I am okay, really and one more time you insist, I will get the false Idea that you still care for me."

She frowned at me.

"But I do care for you." She said without missing a beat, and I felt my heart jump out of my cage.

"It's just not in the way you think, I only care for you as much I will care for any other human being, nothing more nothing less, " she added sternly looking in my eyes, showing me that she ment every word.

I felt my heart sink at her words, if she would have denied that she cares for me it would have been easier, because I know that would be a lie, but saying she cares for me nothing more than any other person hurts way more, but can I blame her. It's more than I can ask for

I could have done things differently.

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#Day

Today I woke up in the middle of night with a jerk. I was sweating profusely. My palms were a bit shaky with the aftereffect of the nightmare. I heard Alex crying loudly, it was then I realized I had screamed hard, hard enough to wake him up from his peaceful slumber like countless other nights.

I immediately took Alex on my lap to soothe him, it took me nearly half an hour to calm him down and assure him that everything is all right, before he finally feel asleep clutching my fingers tightly as if expecting someone to come and snatch him away from me. Even the thought of it made me shiver in terror.

I tried to console myself, to calm myself. But deep down I know, when Agustin finds me he will make my life hell again.

'Right at this moment I hate you the most Agustin, more than I have ever done before. I hate you with every fibre of my being.

Fucking stop torturing my child as well. You motherfucking bastard.'

But what's more, I hate myself as well for being such a weakling. I never anticipated that it would be this hard to get you out of my mind even after running away. I am miles away from you but you still haunt my mind, day and night.

But, not my child, please not my child. I am scaring Alex as well, and this is killing me.

With every breath I take, I bleed.

With every second that passes something within me dies.

You will never be forgiven for this Agustin, I vowed.

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The steel bar of guilt closed around me. She stood up for me at every opportunity, even without me knowing it, and this is how I have repaid her.

I closed the file, my eyes stinging with tears of guilt.

I felt something wet on my hand, it was then I noticed, I was clutching my car keys so hard that it had cut the skin over my palm and blood was gushing out of it.

I saw the blood and thought, if someone takes out my heart right now, this is how it must look, bleeding raw.

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Today was a really stressful and tiring day for me, writing this chapter was the best part of my day.

Hope you all like it!! If yes then please vote, comment, and share. It would mean a lot to me.????

Have a nice day, Until next.

Ricky ??

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